THE MORE I TALK TO MY FRIENDS- WHETHER ON THE FONE (which is rarely) OR ON YAHOO- THE MORE I MISS THEM AND THE MORE I GET THE URGE TO GO BACK HOME. AFTERALL THEY ARE THE ONLY REASON WHY I WOULD WANT TO GO BACK TO THE PHILIPPINES. IF EVERYONE ARE LIKE THOSE PEOPLE (ANNE CURTIS, KRIS AQUINO, THAT IYA GERRL et al.)WHO COMPLAINS ABOUT STUPID THINGS THAT THEY REALLY SHOULDNT BE COMPLAINING ABOUT (i.e "OH YEAH CUZ PIMPLES MAKES ME LOOK SO PANGET" or "MY LEGS ARE LIKE SO MASCULINE KASI EH") THEN I WOULD NEVER WANT TO GO BACK ANYMORE. BUT NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE THAT. I KNOW MY FRIENDS ARE'NT. THEYRE THE REASON FOR EVERYTHING. THEYRE THE REASON WHY I SLEEP REALLY LATE JUST SO I CAN TALK TO THEM ALL NIGHT, WHY I WASTE MY MONEY ON FONECARDS JUST SO I CAN CALL THEM AND TELL THEM HOW MUCH I REALLY FUCKING MISS THEM AND WHY I SIGN UP TO ALL THOSE FRIENDSTER-MYSPACE THINGIES JUST SO I CAN BE CONNECTED TO THEM. I HAVE MISSED SO MANY BIRTHDAYS, SO MANY PARTIES, SO MANY IMPORTANT EVENTS..I PRACTICALLY DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MY FRIENDS ANYMORE. HOW THEY ARE DOING, WHO THEY ARE DATING(if theyre actually dating someone), AND OTHER STUFF LIKE THAT. ARGGHH NOW IM REALLY STARTING TO GET HOMESICK. AFTER 3 YEARS? UGH.. TFC ISNT MAKING ME FEEL "AT HOME SA PILIPINAS", ITS MAKING ME MORE HOMESICK. GODDAYUM!

feli, pagkatapos kitang makausap bigla nalang akong nalungkot at biglang nahomesick.

AYAW KO NA SA SITWASYON NA ITO. SANA MAGING OKAY NA ANG LAHAT

drop everything
start it all over
remember more than you'd like to forget...

oh eto pang isa. malapit-lapit na dina ng pasko. haha! REGALO!!

madalas kong nakikita ang sarili ko na kinakausap ko ang aking mahal na aso. masama kaya yun? madalas ko din nakikita ang sarili ko na naglilinis ng bentilador pasado alas kwatro ng madaling araw para lang hinde matulog. kids.. i am now officially addicted to the game PANG! padamihan kayo ng masasabihang panget. HAHAHA

gusto ang magiging papa ko kagaya ng aso ko. malambing, hag ng hag (oo mga keeds ang aso ko ay marunong magbigay ng hags or embraces), at kees ng kees--preferably sa cheeks lng at sa noo at siguro smack every once in a while pero no me gusto torrid keesing. BLECH. (iba ang kiss ng aso ko,dila sa buong mukha mo. wag naman ganon MAN wag naman..)



HI KOOKAI. GIOVE ATE A KEES!



ANG FRANCES (AS IN TAGALOG NG FRENCH. PERO YAN ANG PANGALAN NYA) NG BUHAY KO. HEYY GEERRLFRUUND! MALAPIT NA BEERDAY MO GERRL. INUMAN NA TOH AY HINDE PALA GAMBLING LANG PALA. CASINO IT IS!! I FORGOT WERE NOT OLD ENOUGH TO DRINK LEGALLY YET. BULLSHIIITTTTT

wala lang. sinulat ko lng na wala na ang finch para lang pumunta kayo sa tabulas ko. haha. got'cha! anyways bumili ako ng rubix cube na earrings. nalalaro pa. pag aburridong aburrido sa spanish class, tanggalin ang hikaw at simulang pagsusunud sunudin ang mga kulay ng rubix cube. pag napagod na ang mga kamay, ibalik na ang rubix cube na hikaw sa kanyang kinasasabitan. not bad for $5.00.

hinde ko pa nagagawa yung pinagagawa sakin ni greys. napaka dami ko kasing ginagawa para sa iskwela. pero pipilitin kong isingit yun sa mga listahan ko para lang kay greys (typecast cd ko ha!). gumawa na ako ng to-do notebook. para organize naman ang buhay ko diba?

sobrang init. nakakairita. lagi nalang pawis na pawis. parang nasa impyerno naknampotah! gusto kong mag malling kase aircon don. nag punta kami ni rhea sa mall kahapon.

LADY IN TORRID SHOPPE: Hi guys! Welcome to torrid
AKO: You too.
whhhaaaatt? ang bopoloks!

dala siguro yan ng init. napriprito yung utak ko hinde tuloy gumagana ng matino.
dalhin nyo ako sa palasyong puro niyebe!



I LOVE MARY KATE! YEHEY.

GIGS:


yes! there are a lot this month. i mean alot. theres story of the year, chem romance, fall out boy, & matchbook romance in one show. then theres silverstein and senses fail, then taking back sunday, then there freaking bright eyes!! yes yah heard that right bright eyes. sir conor oberst. then interpol AND THEN...theres coheed and cambria! nov.6 at soma AGAIN. am i gonna watch? hell yeah ill go see them. ill be there in a second no doubt. but i have to have a budget. so many shows so little money. in fact,no money at all. yesterday was finch. i didnt go cuz i already saw them before. same opening bands same everything.
O! pictures nanaman toh greys! para nanaman toh sa oyoy. hah!
RHEA, HINGE KA NA NG DAY OFF MO! HAHAHA



dayuummm claudio looks like he just popped out off of a VOGUE magazine. hot daammnnn!! POTANGINA NAMAN CLAUDIO EH PINAPATIBOK MO NANAMAN ANG AKING PUSO. TSK

we went to a parteh. a friend's cousin. we get there and the party's over, but there were so many people. its like SOMA where theres alot of people to goo see a band. more than half of them went or still goes to my school. i hated that school and it seemed like a reunion. i promised my dad i wouldnt drink because i dont think im going to be comfortable drinking with people i despise in highschool hey shit might happen youll never know. and then shit happened. cops raided the house. more than half of the people were underaged. i.e. 20- under. most of them are like 17 under. clearly not legal enough to drink here in the united states. the cops left us alon because the owner of the house said we were her nieces. we were stay-ins. (thank you!!).

and now after that incident, i vow that i wont go to parties and i wont drink till im 21. parties are not my thing anyway. whats 3 years of waiting? my mom said as much as possible avoid going to parties mostly drinking parties. shed rather me go see a shitloads of concerts than going to a parteh and then getting the place raided by cops. not cool honey, not cool. shit yeah dude. concerts are way better, i get to have fun and i get to be sober all the time. as soon as i turn 21, i swear im gonna go to vegas and drink up all the years that i will be going to miss drinking. hah!

its official that im going to the story of the year show on the 29th. i bought frances a ticket as a bday gift so we can go together. i was actually planning on buying a ticket for the coheed show but decided to just go with frances. so stoy, chem romance, anberlin and letter kills here i come. PICTURES OY!

i didnt have fun but im glad she liked my gift. i felt so neglected on the parteh. everyone kept on leaving me even my own cousin. good thing rhea showed up. and good thing auntie sabel was going to my other friends party so i just went with her. now i had so much fun in that party im gonna tell you that. thank you jan for teaching me how to play the guitar. i kinda know a little bit cuz i took classes when i was in 5th grade. it was my first time playing a guitar again. now my fingers are longing for the frets.. aahh.. i think im gonna go start learning how to play the guitar and this time im serious. really. my dad said i never take things like that seriously even though i say im really gonna do it. well im planning on chaging that. i really want to learn how to play the guitar. and i am gonna go learn! YAY!!!

sa lahat ng mga nagtatanung kung ako ay uuwi. HINDI! hinde ako uuwi. gustuhin ko man na makauwi ay hinde rin pwede dahil wala akong pera. nagtatanung lng ako ng pasalubong ng gusto nyo dahil magpapadala ako ok? baka kasi may umuwi samin dyan sa pinas so isasabay ko nalang. kung wala man edi alam ko na kung anung bibilin ko sa pasko para mapadala ko. kahit matagal heh. mukhang majority ata ay gusto yung comics ng coheed. hmm sure shot yun kung gusto nyo talaga. mura lng naman yun eh. pero matatagalan pa yun. kasi ang gig ng coheed ay november 6 pa. wala nang uuwe nun. so wala akong choice kunde i-mail yun sa inyo. pwede rin, pwede rin.

si bong gusto daw si geoff, or si nate. cge kidnapin natin tapos babalot ko sya sa sako at ilalagay ko sya balikbayan box ayus ba? marian may utang akong cd. nasakin na cd mo. inaamag na sa kwarto. nakakahiya naman tuloy sayo haha. si neke..no answer padin. si greys jacket daw. oks lng ba segunda mano? para can afford ko naman. si karyl..pakitanung naman sya oh. si tesa, bikene daw. si feli? cd daw. ay sus ang dame nyo pala!

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hinde ko magawa yung spanish homework ko. hinde gumagana yung utak ko ngayun eh. ewan ko ba kung bakit. kailangan ko pang gumawa ng poster. anu ba yan. sabi ko hinde na ako mag pro-procrastinate. pero eto nanaman ako at ginagawa ko nanaman.

ang tagal ko ng hinde nakakabili ng cd. isang buwan mahigit na ata. nakakainis na ha!

1. hawthorne heights (kailangan kong makabili ng cd nila para pag napanuod ko sila makaka sing along ako sa kanila)

2. bright eyes (gusto kong bilin yung mga luma nilang cd. napaka galeng kasi conor.)

3. second stage turbine blade comic book (claudio. need i saw more?)

Biting nails is a form of therapy for me.

gusto ko ng sabihin sa mga magulang ko na gumagamit ako.... gumagamit ako ng tampon. baka pag sinabi ko sa kanila hinde matanggap at akoy itakwil nila. baka isipin ng nanay ko hinde na ako birhen (V POWER NOH!). kanina sa seafood city yung supermarket ng mga pinoys at mexicanos binabalak ko na sabihin. prinapraktis ko sa aking isipan kung panu ko sisimulan:

ako: dad, ma, may pagtatapat ako sa inyo. sana wag kayong magalit
(putangina, parang gumagamit ako ng drugs or nagyoyosi ako noh.)
gumagamit na ako ng tampon. nagna-napkin pa naman ako eh sa gabi. napaka confortable kasi ng tampon. wala ng tagos tagos. sana mainitindihan nyo. dalaga na ako at hinde nyo na ako mapipigilan kung gumamit man ako ng tampon.

dramatiks naman nito chong!! labo labo mehn.
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sa spanish class yung titser ko minarkahan ako ng absent kasi daw ang ingay ko. nag quiz pa naman kami, nagpresent pa naman ako sa harap ng klase para sa extra points, tinurn in ko pa on time yung mga homeworks tapos mamarkahan lng nya ako ng absent? anuba naman yun. may tinanung lng naman ako dun sa klasmeyt kong lalaki eh. mawawala nlng yung points ko nung araw na yun? pati yng quiz? at lahat? PUNYETA NAMAN OH!!!! BADTRIP!

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kanina tumawag si nanay sa pinsan ko para tanungin kung anung kailangang bilin para sa bahay.

nanay: kailangan nyo ng sibuyas?
pinsan: whats sibuyas? ohh onions.

POTAH! PACOOL!! HINDE NAMAN! HAH

i seem to have a very low tolerance and a very high rate of annoyance with demanding people. those who cannot really ask for anything or something politely. i hate it when people just expects you to fucking do things for them without even asking. they make it seem that you are obliged to do it for them. i see it all the the time. with people i dont really know. it happens to me all the time. i dont do that and i hate it when people do that. i dont care who you are, where youre from, what you did, as long as you love me--NO NO, wait, let me start over...i mean i dont care who you are or if youre related to me or wherever you maybe from or what not but i will not like you. i may not show it to you but i will definitely have a grudge on you. most of those people are fucking lucky because we dont know each other. but the others are not.

anyways.....

birday gerrl frances is buying a car. dearest zhelan is taking the driving test. and hunnie bunches of oats rhea already drives. im the only one who doesnt drive. man if you only know the reason. IT SUCKS! i think im gonna go start taking the bus from now on. gagawing kong parang pinas..nag ko-commute. yuss!

another anyways....

sa lahat ng mga friends ko dyan sa pinas.. text nyo naman ako! meron ako ditong sim card na globe. 1 peso lng toh sa inyo pag nag text kayo. para wala nang aangal na ang mahal mag text sakin.
+639174059971

magpapalit na ata ako ng YM handle. nagsasawa na ako sa lulaaygulaay. pag iisipan ko muna kung anung ipapalit ko.

another another anyways....

i finally found a very pretty valid excuse to drink beer every single night. thanks dad for backing me up. i lavv you to death!

DAD: tuwing gabe pag umiinom ako ng beer nagiging regular ang pagtae ko sa umaga.
AKO: talga dad? ako hinde eh. edi dapat pala uminom din ako ng beer.(pajoke)
DAD: oo nga. cguro dapat uminom ka ng beer tuwing gabe, kahet siguro half a glass lang. okay na yun.

ORRAAAYYYTT!!! BEER NA BEER TOH!!

i was browsing through my xanga (my other blog which i rarely even use), looking at this so-called "subscription" list, trying to see whose xanga page am i going to waste my time reading on today when i came across this one person's xanga, whom we are going to hide in the name of typewriterromances. he writes really good. every single fucking word that he utters hits you right in the core, well at least for me. and he most deff knows what hes talking about. most deffffffff. here is an excerpt from one of his posts that i trully and will trully live by from now on.
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mr. typewriterromances writes:

"...but, i do know that the "solution" lies in the bottom of every can and bottle. when you reach the end, it jumps to the next bottle. it's the ever-present quest to find the answers we're not able to. it's ridiculous, useless, and will never get us the information we strive for. but we're young and dumb and this is what we live for. broken hearts and broken bottles. the things we can't fix. hearts can never be fully mended, and glass sure as hell can't be pieced back together."
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and you know what? i didnt mind wasting my time reading all his entries at all. not at all

read on

in a desperate need to get money, i have decided to sell some of my cds to none other than DON. heres what he gets for the amount of 30 dollars:

1. a sugarcult shirt (good thing my shirts are size small (men) so it would
fit him fine.)
2. a rufio enhanced cd (even though it breaks my heart to see
that little thing go)
3. my warped tour 2001 cd
4. a sugarcult dvd
5. a hellcat dvd
6. and my ataris so long astoria cd (SALAMAT PO!)

ten dollars more and im off to taking back sunday and coheed and cambria! hopefully theres still tickets. there better be some more fucking tickets FAGGOTSS!!!!
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tomorrow is story of the year, my chemical romance, lost prophets (puhhleeaasee), anberlin, letter kills. and tomorrow is my spanish quiz, my psychology quiz, and other shit. TAKE THAT FAGGOTS! HAH!

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if you look up the meaning of CHRONIC INSOMNIA in a psychology book you will see:

CHRONIC INSOMNIA: when sleeping problems last longer than
3 weeks (uhmmm try more than 3 months?)

then it will give you examples. and underneath youll find:

example:
the earliest Lulay sleeps is 4 in the morning on schoolnights. on weekends, she sleeps at 4 in the morning or 6 in the morning. sometimes she doesnt even sleep at all.

summer vacation(3 months) + 4 in the morning or 6 in the morning or no sleep at all + lulay= THE DEFINITION OF CHRONIC INSOMNIA.

shet to shet!

in about 15 minutes or so im leaving for the story of the year show. i went to www.somasd.com to check what time the show will start and then bad news said hello to me:

Thursday, October 14th
HOB Presents...

Taking Back Sunday

Fall Out Boy
Matchbook Romance
The Sleeping


Mainstage
$16.50
6:30 PM


Sold Out

UNBELIEVEAFUCKINGBLE!!!

and its telling me a message: borrow mommy's credit card and go buy your coheed tickets now before they sell out. tell her you're gonna pay her back when you get the money from don. thats right!!